Jamie Ichigo’s Blog

what the bloody hell with the song??

hari ni pan pac baik hati pasang lagu kat corong speaker…rasa macam kat narnia pun ade ni…ngantuk pun ade…hahahaha..tambahan pulak tengah hujan ni…heee…

dan aku kini telah kembali ke PR bersama miss marina dan kembali membuat kerja2 tak berfaedah aku ni…dok kat PR ni tak byk keje sgt dan yg penting,balik awal…dah 2minggu aku balik lmbt dan ni peluang aku utk balik awal kembali…

aku sekarang tgh seronok chatting ngan makcik…tanya khabar rakan2 di melaka…dan tetiba je makcik tanya.. "jimah ngan budak tu mcm mana?"

makcik!!!sudah lama ku lupakan mamat itu sebab hati ni dah tak larat utk dicalarkan lagi…lagi pun aku dah malas nak pikir pasal bende ni…byk lg bende dlm list hidup aku yg aku nak buat…starting with sambung belajar..maybe dengan sambung belajar boleh buat aku lupakan pasal ni…buhuhuhuhu….

tetiba je aku rasa hati aku beku mcm dulu…maybe lepas aku gaduh ngan makcik aku n ckp kat dia yg aku taknak kisah dah pasal orang lain, hati aku terus beku dan heartless…biar org cakap aku kejam janji hati aku tak luka lagi…

ok laa….dlm keadaan aku membekukan hati ni dapat aku mencari erti kehidupan yg sebenar…wassalam….

p/s: I Still…..

wanna know my personality?? check it out…( thanks sfera safra for this..)

You are a Mentor! (Submissive Extroverted Abstract Thinker) You are a MENTOR (SEAT). Some would call you the most powerful and influential of all people. Those people are wrong. The reality is that you DON’T really WANT to impose personal views or beliefs on others. Yet you are extroverted and intelligent, and you like to get involved. So you help others with the pursuit of knowledge. You’re the reason that people say teachers are also students. You are as much a learner as a master, and this satisfies you. You won’t die a lonely death, but towards the end you’ll grow introspective, wondering if your life meant anything. This will last for decades, and you’ll die after your spouse.

Compared to 14,832,701 other test takers…

9% are more Submissive than you.		77% are more Dominant than you.
14% are just as Submissive as you.
71% are more Introverted than you.		14% are more Extroverted than you.
15% are just as Extroverted as you.
33% are more Abstract than you.		45% are more Concrete than you.
22% are just as Abstract as you.
20% are more Thinking than you.		73% are more Feeling than you.
8% are just as Thinking as you.

hari tu aku cakap latest obsession aku GPRS kan? la ni aku dah tukar pulak sebab aku nak up-to-date sikit…korang pun mesti same kan?

aku sekarang suke kat SONY BEAN NETWORK WALKMAN  aku yang baru je aku beli kelmarin…warna biru (my fav colour) dan bentuk kacang (bean - bcoz i like mr bean…yahahahaha)..walaupun harga mahal tapi aku puas hati aa sebab aku bleh layan lagu di mana-mana sahaja…bukan takat lagu, radio pun aku leh dengar…

well,maybe dengar lagu will make me happy dan aku enjoy tanpa perlu aku hiraukan orang lain…tapi walaupun aku kata dengar lagu boleh bagi kita happy, aku rasa baca Quran boleh bagi kita tenang kan?? ape pun,janji kita kena pandai balance kan hidup kita…wassalam…

p/s: world tu world jugak…akhirat jgn lupa… (ni mawi cakap..aku curik je walaupun aku tak minat mawi..kata2 yg baik harus diikut…)

I’ll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don’t tell anyone or you’ll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret

hey…semua orang ade dirty little secrets kan? well, i have some too…actually orang takkan bagitau secrets dia kat orang lain tapi still, i want to share it with you to help you to know me better…

1) people may think i am sweet and will just shut up when people talk about others but in fact, i will go and tell all my best buddies about it…

2) people always trust me and make me their some kind of ‘middleman’ or someone to talk to when they have a crush on someone else. they will show me every single thing that the other person give them (sms, stuffs and so on) and believe that i will not tell that other person…but hey, that other person is my friend too and i couldn’t help it…

3)i am some kind of mean girl and when i say mean,i really mean ‘MEAN’….those nasty words will come out from my mouth whenever i’m feeling dissatisfaction about someone or something…

4)i used to play prank on people…i put glue on their chair, i switched thier clothes with someone else’s, i prank call a guy (theheeeheee…) and i even teamed up with my friends to write a love letter to one guy and my other friend was blamed for it…hohoho..meany me…

5)i am a total BITCH….well, at least i admit it..but not all the time..i can be a bitch when someone buat kurang ajar to me…(p/s:sila rujuk cara pemakaian aku kat gambar atas)

ok ok…mmg korang tak sangka aku macam ni kan?tapi at least aku tak berpura-pura dan ‘fake’ serta hipokrit macam orang lain…aku tunjuk je perangai sebenar aku…nasihat aku, korang jangan laa berpura-pura just to catch someone’s attention and don’t change yourself and try to hard just to fit in the group that you think sangat bagus because diorang pun tak perfect macam yg  kita sangka kan…

OK? wassalam…….

p/s: bersyukur je laa dengan diri sendiri…

dedicated to my special friend.
the only real security in a relationship lies neither in looking back in
nostalgia, nor forward in dread or anticipation, but……… living in the
present relationship and accepting it as it NOW

Kawan………..,
benarkah kita sedang berkawan
betulkah kita tak pernah berlawan
serasikah kita dalam berkawan
tuluskah kita dialam berkawan

Kawan………..,
pinta ku… jangan aku ditinggalkan
rayuku….. usah aku kau lupakan….
hatiku…. sukar aku…. untukku….. kau ku lepaskan
tangisku…. bukan kau yang aku hindarkan

Kawan………..,
biar kering air dikali
biar hujan membanjiri bumi
biar panas sepanjang hari
biar ribut meredah alam

Kawan………..,
kau…., masih kawan yang macam semalam
kau…., masih tercatat dihati seperti semalam
kau…., masih diingatan… sentiasa diingatan…..

Kawan………..,
hampir sepurnama kita berkawan….
adakah sepurnama juga kita dijalinan ‘kawan’

Kawan………..,
aku…., tak mampu untuk berlari mengejarmu
aku…., hanya mampu untuk sama berlari denganmu
aku…., tahu aku tak mungkin kehilanganmu
aku…., tak tahu adakah kau akan kehilangku….

Kawan………..,
terimakasih… kerana kita pernah berkawan
terimakasih… sebab kita masih berkawan

p/s: thanks sebab kita berkawan….and thanks sebab menghargai aku sebagai insan biasa….

p/p/s: thanks yan sebab forward poem ni…really touching aa

Christmas is just around the corner and I can’t wait to celebrate it…I really love Christmas, even though I don’t really know the true meaning of Christmas and why Christians celebrate it…but I don’t care about it…all I care about are presents, cookies and Christmas tree!!

actually I’m eating one of the cookies made by my friends for this coming Christmas..she gave me while visiting me at the office and I love the cookies!! really!! it reminds me of Christmas!! and I can’t wait to spend my holiday on that day…theheheee…

honestly, I love all festivals that are celebrated in this country because it’s a holiday and I can have a whole day free time, doing what I love to do and spending my times with the loved ones - my family…I wonder how they celebrate it in UK?it’s been a while since I left it and I still can remember all the bright lights and christmas carol singing on the Christmas Eve and people visting their relatives and friends on the Christmas itself…just like when we celebrate Hari Raya..it was a total fun…oh, I almost forgot..I need to buy a Christmas Card for my ‘family’ in UK

However, I do hope that I feel the excitement once again..who knows if I get a chance to celebrate Christmas in UK again???

p/s: seasons greeting everybody!!

Last Saturday my step sis went to her friend’s wedding…masa dia balik tu,dia seronok aaa citer pasal wedding reception tuh…happening laa ape la…dok citer pasal misha omar, rosma, khai dan Ramli MS (whom i always call Wamli MS bcoz my brother thought the name is soooooo funny) yang datang ke majlis tu

pastu dia cerita laa pasal suasana wedding tu, baju kaler ape pengantin pakai, makan aper kat sana, lagu ape yang artis nyanyi…it sounds like they’re having sooo much fun but i didn’t really pay attention to what she’s talking about..

and then she asked me…

"Jimah nanti kahwin nak buat macam mana?"

"ERKKK!!!! tak pernah fikir lagi punnn……"

seriously..aku tak pernah fikir lagi pasal kawin2 ni..well,ade la sikit kot tapi tu pun pasal pakaian je laa…hahahaa..yang lain aku tak fikir lagi pun…banyak lagi bende yang aku nak buat dan aku dah merancang yang aku akan sambung belajar maybe sampai umur aku 28 years old..lepas tu keje dan baru fikir pasal kawin kot…hihihihi..

tapi, bak kata aku kat yan…sape yang nak kawin ngan aku tu mesti mampu bagi aku beberapa keping kredit kad yang unlimited amount utk aku berbelanja dan laki tu mesti takde problem nak membayar jumlah kredit kad aku lepas tu dan yang penting, duit dia mmg susah nak susut…

lagi satu,kalau sape nak kawin ngan aku…dia mesti sediakan everything…hantaran,mas kawin,rumah,pakaian dll (korang paham2 sendiri aa)..meaning that aku tak yah keluarkan duit langsung….hahaha..ye la,kalau yg tu pun dah tak leh nak handle..macam ne nak jaga aku masa2 depan ni….heee….

sape ade ciri-ciri di atas sila la hantar borang kepada aku…tapi satu lagi syarat yg aku nak mintak…dia ni mesti single dalam apa jua cara pun…bukan aku tak nak kongsi ngan orang lain tapi aku kesian kalau pompuan jadi mangsa laki yg nak kawin banyak ni..susah….sakit di hati tak sape yg tahu, kan??

ok la..yang tu je kot…selamat menilai perangai aku ni…hahaha…

p/s: ni semua alasan sebab tak nak kawin la ni…chet..

sape kate kita mesti passion melampau dengan minat kita?walaupun kita mmg minat pasal sesuatu,tak semestinya kita kena obses..

semalam dan hari ni aku baca newspaper..pasal seorang budak yg bunuh diri sebab bapak dia taknak upgrade komputer dia…budak ni mmg kaki komputer n since dia adalah anak tunggal,parents dia bagi segala apa yg dia suka…dan parents dia bagi segala2nya tentang komputer utk memenuhi minat si anak ni…

tapi bile bapak dia taknak upgrade komputer, si anak ni frust menonggeng dan terus bunuh diri dengan bagi kejutan elektrik..punya aa bodo budak tu…sian je..mati katak..

bile aku baca cerita ni kan..aku teringat balik pasal aku…aku ni obses jugak yg byk bende dan kalau boleh aku nak je beli semua bende yg aku suke tu…tapi selalunya tak dapat…ayah aku mmg tak kasik nyer aaa…dia kata kumpul duit dulu n then beli sendiri…kekadang aku merajuk dan "menyebai" (naik angin) ngan ayah aku tapi bile aku fikir balik,byk lagi bende yg ayah aku nak buat daripada dok melayan kerenah aku je..hihihihi…tapi aku tak kisah as long as dia tak tarik freedom aku…sebab aku tak suke bile org masuk campur pasal freedom aku…

apa yang boleh aku simpulkan dari cerita ni ialah…jgn diikutkan sangat perasaan dan nafsu..nanti merana diri dan rugikan diri sendiri ajer….ini bukannya ditujukan utk sesapa tapi juga utk aku sebab kekadang aku ni cepat melenting bila kehendak aku tak ditunaikan..tapi bila diikutkan sangat nafsu tu mmg boleh binasa…so,fikir-fikirkan lah…sebab kalau boleh kita taknak mati katak disebabkan obses yang melampau tu kan??wassalam….

p/s: buat ape yg termampu…

~My Current Favourite Song…~

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way to never let it get that far

(chorus)
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I?m forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break, when it wasn’t even whole to start with

(chorus)

I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing

(chorus, but slightly different)
Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don’t know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I’m ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you?
Because of you?

suker giler sebab muzik dia sedih…lirik dia pun sedih…ada cerita disebalik lagu…

p/s:tapi tak leh lawan lagu lagu "what if" yg aku suke tu…

tadi aku sembang ngan siti,kawan aku yg training sesama kat pan pac…(walaupun dia,marni dan munira training bahagian kitchen dan aku training kat ofis,kami tetap rapat…) masa kami lunch kat pan cafe…

"yargh…tak de sesapa menarik ker??" (ayat feveret aku ni!!)
"menarik ape nyer?" tanya siti
"takde org comey…tak leh cuci mata.." jawab aku selamber
"ish,hang ni…takdak keja lain kaa…gatai sungguh…" siti menjeling kat aku
"ala hang ni…bosan tau dak tak leh cuci mata…" balas aku sambil tersengih kambing. siti menjeling sambil menggeleng kepala.
"hang tau dak….masa aku dok kat HR,tiap2 hari cuci mata..especially kalau abg artist tu lalu..wakaka…la ni dok kat event management,bersilau mata aku asyik dok usha komputer jaaa…kat PR lak..mata aku asyik berpinar jaa…sian mata aku tau…" sambung aku lagi sambil mengunyah ayam pandan aku dlm tray (budak skolah asrama). yang tangan si siti ni asyik dok merayap kat tray munira,curi ayam pandan dia (sian toi..)
"sian mata tu noo…." balas siti

tu laaa…mata tu asyik melilau jaa…mata keranjang sungguh…hobi aku la katakan..ala..usha ajer..bukan buat ape pun..tapi topik ni mmg berkaitan ngan mata je la..haha

p/s:serius aku bosan..tatau nak tulis aper…hahaha…nasib korang yg membaca aaa